1. Letting It All Out

    I don’t want to say it.  I don’t want to acknowledge it.  And by saying it, I have to fully acknowledge it.  But here it is.

    I’m afraid.  My confidence is shaken.  Between the upper GI issues I’ve experienced first at Graveyard and then at Lookout Mountain and now the nagging tendon pain, I’m starting to question Rocky.  I wish I had never signed up.  Never put myself out there to take on something so big because it’s scary.  As much as I want it, as hard as I’ve trained, it might not be enough.

    It’s a big question mark and I’m not sure I have the answer. 

    I have always felt confident that if I showed up at the start line fully trained and 100% that I could finish.  Now, I wonder if it’s even possible.  I’ll still show up. I might not be 100%.  My training hasn’t been flawless.  Is it enough?

    Less than a month to go.  Maybe this is just pre-race jitters.  The start of taper madness.  But, for the first time in a long time, I’m beginning to wonder if I have what it takes.

    4 weeks from tomorrow there will be a start line. I will fight fiercely. I will dig deep.  I will give 100% of my body, my mind. And then I will give more. 

    It’s not a given. And I have to be okay with that. Even if it’s a little scary.

     
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  2. tallmormon said: I think you won by putting in what u have
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  7. ashamedtosay said: You’ve put in the work. You have a better idea about your GI issues. You got this.
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  13. teamagee said: Rach….I think it is normal for confidence to waver when facing a Huge challenge that has been placed in front of you. You are a machine, and I’m confident you can accomplish anything you put your mind to.
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  15. run-doozer-run said: Exactly.
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  17. tightenthebelt said: You have what it takes. Let fear be your counselor, not your jailer.
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  23. seeamandarun said: I know exactly how you feel.
  24. michaeldoeslife said: it’s ok to be scared. You’ll know what to do when the time comes.
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  27. justbrooksy said: You’ll kick ass. I have no doubt about that.
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  33. robbsrunning said: That’s all you can do! I tell you, I’m scared about Goofy. All this training and I’m afraid the same thing that happened at that 50K will happen, but I’ll be there and do it. What ever happens - happens. You do though inspire myself as well as others
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  37. ironmanredux said: I will be there to help you dig deep.
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  45. thisfearlesslife said: I think you answered your own question: “4 weeks from tomorrow there will be a start line. I will fight fiercely. I will dig deep. I will give 100% of my body, my mind. And then I will give more.”
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